i got screwed... lol ...

So , waking up at 630 am ... no i woke up at 730 for my interview in CIMB.
Zhern yoong was so right about banking. You got to really want it to have it..

As for me, i was half-hearted.. no. maybe only quarter.
So i went into CIMB w/o any knowledge whatsoever about the company or the market.
heck, i am a future engineer !!..

She started asking me question ... blah blah blah ... and my point was, i wanted to see what is luring the engineers into being investment bankers besides $$$.
So i practically said NO to everything when she asked me about CIMB, banking, etc.

Hell, who cares about this internship. Even if i get an offer, i am so terminating it within 1 month or so instead of 2 months. 3months summer break is too long but 2 months internship is a killer.
I can sense her feeling that i wasn't ready or wasn't even wanting it.

Oh well, now i realise i really like to study more than getting myself into working. Maybe it is not the time yet. Uncle Sim for now is my mentor and idol.

I am still proud of myself and i can still walk tall despite being TOO honest in the interview. I don't give a damn about HR ppl, oh, so u know how to select candidates now with ALL the knowledge learn from your studies or was it just through experience?
Even if ur best at interviews, u may not be the best employer ?? Research shows only half of them are AS GOOD as u think they are.
Oh well, it was this HR ppl who selected me for my scholarship so i shall not discriminate them any further.

I am so gonna craft my way. Not gonna be an employer and doing the rat race with all others.
I am gonna start fresh today. Its easy to say but starting and doing it is tough ..
Have faith in myself then.

PS: i so screwed it up.

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